Chapter 40

Children are love made visible.

                 American Proverb

The soft warm kiss was almost too much for Billy as he fell into Mike’s strong arms, his head nestled up against the beating chest. He could hear his lover’s heart pounding inside and he knew that the love that was in that heart knew no boundaries where he was concerned. He felt total, complete, as if only Mike could make him that way. As long as he was with Mike, as long as he had his love, then nothing else would ever matter. The safety and security of that love seemed to grow as he slowly disentangled himself from Mike’s arms and sat back up on the bed, his legs off to one side, his body leaning across Mike’s washboard stomach.

It seemed like time had suddenly ceased to exist for them. The alarm clock dial seemed to not even click over to the next digit on the seconds, never mind the minutes as they just sat there, at ease with each other, at peace with each other’s love for the other. It was like they had reached a level where few humans ever walked and Billy was once more feeling that high start to build up inside of him. He knew that he had been acting childish, shit, if a kid like Keith and Tommy could find time in an evening six or seven times, he surely could find the time and place to be with Mike two or three times, or hell, even eight times if he had the strength.

“You really think I’ll be a good parent?”

“Uh huh, I mean you have so much patience, and love, yeah it is going to be fun raising kids with you”

“You make it sound so real Mike, like it really is going to happen”

“It is, I don’t know why, I just do. I guess it is sort of like believing in God, you just know he exists, and well, I just know we are going to have a great family together”

“But there are so many obstacles, so many things that can ruin our plans, how can you be so sure?”

“Easy, if it is what you want, then it is going to happen, or I am going to die trying to make it happen… I know it sounds corny and all that, but there is nothing I won’t do for you, and I know how much you want to have a real family, like any other couple you want that, so I know it is going to happen”

“I guess that is why I love you so much Mike, you make me feel like I am something special…”

“You are, not just to me but to a lot of others”

“Thanks, but I know this may sound weird, but what you think is all I really care about, I know, there is dad and Taylor of course, but, well I do care what they think but not in the same way as I care what you think, guess that is kind of dumb huh?”

“No, I guess its like love, I mean you love your dad and Taylor, but not the same way you love me, least I hope not”

“No, there is no comparison, I really do love you, I can’t explain it, I mean when I thought that Keith was on to us, I well, panicked a bit, but it wasn’t for him finding out about me, but that it might hurt you, and I don’t know, it is wacky I guess, but that is how I think of just about anything that happens, how it affects you”

“Yeah me too, I guess that’s what love does, it kind of takes away that selfish part of a person, I don’t know, it just is so right Billy, it really is”

Mike leaned forward, his face all serious and Billy saw his lips move as he brought his own face closer, and once more they kissed each other, feeling the fire inside of each other, feeling the glow of a deep burning desire that would never burn out. Billy could feel his heart racing as he tasted the salty lips of his lover and he felt his blood begin to race just a little faster through his body as his hands held onto Mike’s.

Once more, they broke apart and stared at each other, feeling time stop as their love wrapped its cloak around their young bodies. Billy’s blond hair tossed back, the rebellious lock no longer blocking his vision as he slowly moved off the bed, to stand next to Mike. His hands moved on their own, slowly taking his shirt off, then moving down to push his jeans off his lanky body. He stood there, all 5 foot 11 inches of pure teenager, without a stitch of clothing on his young body. His feet curled a little as he climbed back onto the bed, his nudity bringing a warm smile from Mike’s face and an even stronger hug than he could have wished for.

The sound of very young voices intruded briefly into Mike’s thoughts but he tossed them away, as he watched his lover undress for him. The sight of his tall body, devoid of all clothing made his heart race, his pulse quicken and his muscles shake as he waited for Billy to finish, to climb back onto the bed. Once there, he kissed him, feeling the fire starting to blaze up inside of not just his body, but also deep inside of Billy.

Slowly Mike moved off to the other side of the bed, his eyes never leaving the sitting figure of a naked Billy and his smile only grew wider as he saw the way Billy licked his lips, anticipating his next move, wishing for it to come and to end, so they could move on to the next part of their love’s grand plan. Mike stood up, his own 6 foot 1 inch frame towering over the bed and he smiled at the sitting blond, the one who had not just captured his heart, but who held it in his hands each and every second of his life.

Just as the last of his clothes fell to the floor, the sound of two young voices whimpering their climax wafted through the bedroom and both Billy and Mike turned to look through the partially opened door, and then they turned to look at each other, to smile in complete understanding of what had just been voiced in the room across from them.

Mike climbed back onto the bed, his naked body tingling with excitement, knowing that for the next interval of time, his body would be Billy’s and his thoughts would be Billy’s and his joy would be Billy’s. The smiles grew as they embraced once again, their hot flesh sticking together as they slowly brought their lips forwards, gradually bringing them together and as they touched, the fires grew hotter and brighter.

No other sounds could penetrate their minds now, their bodies had touched, their bare flesh was now writhing in ecstasy as the two hearts began to dance together, beating together in a strong steadily rising crescendo of power and love. His body shook and was answered by an equally charged tremor in Billy. Billy’s legs twitched and shook and were answered by an equally powerful shudder from Mike’s limbs.

They had yet to join together fully or even partially, yet their bodies now moved in unison, their hearts beat as one single strong vibrant organ and he could feel the ache growing between his legs and running down and up to his rectum. His whole body shook as he broke off the tender kiss and for one slow second, he just looked into Billy’s blue eyes, telling him and begging him for his love and then he slowly pulled away, his naked flesh resisting for a time but gradually giving in to the demands of physics.

Mike felt like he was being torn in half as he leaned back, his eyes holding Billy’s eyes with his own, his will slowly being transmitted between the widening space and he could feel the answer flowing back to him. He smiled once more before he turned and lay on his back, his head facing upwards, waiting for Billy’s young body to come back into view. He didn’t have long to wait as he felt the warmth of Billy’s body coming across his own, Billy’s legs pushing aside his, Billy’s knees poking up on either side of his inner thighs and he smiled, knowing his desire was about to be fulfilled.

The two hearts were beating fast, as one single racing jet engine, the roar just starting as the two bodies grew closer at that one special point, that one special centre of their physical being. With an amazing slowness and tenderness, Billy moved his body upwards, sitting on his knees as he moved close in between Mike’s warm moist thighs. He could feel the heat as his knees came into soft contact with the flesh, and it was like a sudden fire storm, his heart roared and his mind was clouded over, his head felt dizzy as his groin suddenly burst into flames, the heat growing between them both.

Billy looked down, his hands resting on his legs as he sat on his hunches, just staring down at the quivering body, feeling the excitement building between them both and he couldn’t think of a better person to have fallen in love with. Mike was right, he did love Taylor and at one time in his young life he had felt the emotional and physical bond of being with another man, one who cared and loved him, but it was nothing like how he felt for the young athlete under him. He loved his big brother, more than life itself, and the sex had been a confirmation of that love, but it wasn’t the same as this, it was good, but nothing could compare. As his eyes misted over, he silently prayed that Taylor was experiencing this new type of love with Jeremy and that idea brought a smile to his face.

His hands were moist from sweat but he slowly managed to move them off his own knees, to rest them gingerly on Mike’s hips, feeling the blood begin to boil to his hot touch, feeling the nerves shrieking in anticipation of his love, and feeling the muscles shiver with expectations of his body.

With a calmness that he didn’t feel, he looked down to watch his hands gently press against the hot flesh, gently move upwards, along the quivering body as his own body began to ache and tremble with a burning desire for Mike. His soul was singing deep within his body, his heart was in tune with Mike’s and he could feel the love just flowing all around him. He shook a little as his eyes came into contact with Mike’s and he felt the precious passion that was waiting to be unleashed. His hands moved off to either side of the shaking body and his legs began to slide backwards, pushing out against Mike’s strong legs. The tiny hairs on Mike’s legs tickled his own and he could feel Mike smiling as he felt the tingling sensation passing through.

Everything moved in slow motion, the slow descent to rest his own stomach against Mike’s washboard stomach, the painfully slow transition of sitting up to laying prone on top of Mike, and the warm soft feeling as Mike’s breath wafted across his face, all joined to make Billy shudder and tremble in pleasure. His heart grew faster, the blood began to flow faster and hotter through his body and every nerve, every sense inside of him grew more excited, more sensitive as he brought his hands slowly up Mike’s lanky side, till they rested on his two facial cheeks.

Mike’s eyes fluttered a little, then he felt them close as he pressed his lips upwards, tasting the hot burning flesh of Billy’s mouth as they kissed softly and slowly. Their tongues were held back, restless but compliant as the lips touched and burned with their love for each other. Mike’s hands now slowly moved to hold onto the shaking body on top of him, and he felt the burning desire for him flowing all through Billy’s young body.

While his lips burned hot with Billy’s touch, his legs slowly moved open, the heat coming from Billy’s groin filling and mingling with that from his own rectum and he felt the ache there, grow to where it made him gasp for air. His body was suddenly on fire, and yet he refused to move fast, refused to be rushed, as he wanted to experience every single touch, every single sensation of entry from his lover. There was nothing else he wanted, other than to feel every breath as it blew across his face, to feel every drop of sweat that dripped from Billy’s body onto his own.

Billy’s head lifted slightly, the lips just barely touching as his eyes searched the finely honed features of his lover. He could feel every crevice; every nuance of the face pass through his eyes and become etched forever in his memory. He could see each dot of skin; each wrinkle and he felt his body tremble as it stored it all, never to let this moment pass. Slowly his hands left the soft face and began to travel down, feeling the firmness of Mike’s body. They move down, sensing the nipples and carefully his fingers passed just over the top of each fully erect nipple, making it dance to the barely noticeable touch.

Mike groaned as Billy’s hands moved down his chest, feeling every tiny body hair that was on his frame, feeling every tiny pore as he started to tremble more, knowing that his lover was taking him on a ride he would never forget, taking him on a ride that he would look back on as the years grew long between them. It was his turn now and he could see the top of Billy’s head as his own hands slowly moved down from Billy’s hips, to feel the thigh muscles, feel them coil and tighten under his soft gentle touch. It was amazing how much control their hearts held over their body, the desire to join was almost unbearable, the aches growing more strident with each passing second and yet he refused to let his body quicken its pace.

Their groins were like a molten pot of hot lava, white thick pre cum oozed from both penis’ as their bodies continued to move towards that single peak among the mountains of their love. He could feel Billy’s hands slowly moving down his belly, his stomach muscles at the breaking point as he felt his body arch upwards slightly, trying to adjust the throbbing poles that danced there. Each touch of his dick against Billy’s was almost too much, his balls would suddenly fling upwards but then the moment would pass and he would gasp for air, knowing that the fire was only just starting. Each touch, each drop of hot liquid into the pool made him quake, made his heart go just that much faster and the moans came faster, as his body continued to tremble.

Billy’s hands now moved down faster, they pushed past Mike’s trembling hands, breaking his contact as his hands now moved along the quivering mounds of Mike’s thighs. He pushed at the flesh, forcing them to spread open even wider and then he ran his hands under the legs, to cup them, hold them firmly in his grasp. With a  single heave, Mike could feel his legs being lifted up and he leaned back into the bed, his head tossed even further back as he licked his lips.

The feeling of power grew deep inside of him as he lifted up Mike’s long strong legs, feeling the longer leg hairs and as both legs came level to his face, he turned to one side, his face now rested against one of those hot powerful legs and he kissed the inside of it, letting his tongue brush against the moist flesh. He could feel the muscles inside shudder to his touch and he felt the pain in his groin growing even more intense.

Billy licked the inside of Mike’s leg as far as possible, then he turned and did the exact same thing to the other leg. He could feel the power, the strength that was in each leg, and he knew that all of Mike’s strength was dedicated to him, was his to use if he needed and that under all that strength, all that power rested an immense pool of unfaltering love, dedicated to him. He groaned a little as he kissed each leg one more time, and then moved his young shoulders under them.

Mike lay in the bed, his legs up in the air over Billy’s shoulders and he could feel him moving his hands down the backside now as he slid his body down to force the legs back towards his face and to help raise his buttocks up and off the soft mattress. His eyes opened for a few seconds as he watched his body and Billy’s move into position.

Their two bodies started to slowly melt into each other. Mike could feel his legs moulding themselves into Billy’s shoulders, his groin now burning hotter than any pulsing quasar could ever reach. Billy’s long fingers now pulled as his buttocks, spreading the quivering cheeks apart. Mike felt the sudden press of a hot dripping penis resting inside the valley of his love canyon.

The room was spinning now, he could barely focus on anything but he saw the tall figure standing in the doorway, he just smiled at it as he tossed his head to the other side, his senses reeling from the slow moving hands that were now pulling at his cheeks. His legs were tingling as they swayed above Billy’s head. His arms reached up as he steadied the young blond figure above him, the mere touch of his hands against the taut chest making his penis swell even more.

His balls ached as he felt one of Billy’s hand coming up and over on them. He felt the soft slow touch, the gentle pressure as the long tapered fingers poked at them, one by one and then the whole hand, the soft palm as it pushed upwards, and then carefully rested against his throbbing cock. Mike looked up at Billy but saw nothing but a gentle warm glow of blue and white. The shimmering outline of Billy floated before his misted eyes as his heart started to beat faster, his pulse now racing in a terrible desire that made him wince in pain.

Billy felt Mike’s pain as it flowed through the young body, he could feel the tremors it caused and it shook him as well. His whole body sensed the feelings as he slowly moved his body forwards, his hard young cock pressing firmly now against Mike’s rectum, slowly sliding down the hot moist trail that led to nirvana. His whole body seemed to tense up as he reached down with one hand to gently but firmly guide his throbbing cock to its entry point. Billy’s other hand now moved up the thin young body, pushing the balls gently into Mike’s own dripping penis. The fingers lightly circled the oozing cock, spreading the hot thick pre cum all along the cock head and the shaft, then with some still clearly visible on his finger, he quickly moved his hand down to his own cock and Mike could feel the hand as it coated Billy’s throbbing organ with his pre cum.

Mike groaned more as Billy’s hand came back up and with it flat, he pushed up along the shivering body, and as the hand led him, his body started to rest firmly on the now still body frame, tense and waiting. Billy’s face came up and his tongue shot out quickly, licking at the jutting jaw and then the dry hot lips, then just under the nose and further up around and under the fluttering eyes and then Billy’s whole body suddenly went tense, as did Mikes.

In that split second, both hearts stopped their wild beat and both souls suddenly stopped their singing. The two bodies suddenly ceased to tremble as time was suspended. Their passion for each other suddenly sprang forth, the two golden tanned bodies now covered in its cloak of love and now the two hearts once more began to beat, no longer as two but as one single throbbing organ of power.

Mike felt the strong jolt of passion as the fire in his groin and rectum grew hotter and burned brighter. His eyes no longer could focus, the glare from their love blinding him to all else as Billy’s penis slowly and firmly pressed aside his thin pink sphincter muscle, opening him for all of Billy’s love to enter. The pain travelled slowly along his insides, reaching for every corner of his body. The cock head was now half way past when he felt the first stinging drop of sweat drop from Billy’s brow onto his chest. He could feel the heat of the drop as it rolled down his chest, to swirl around one of his firm pink nipples and then travel down a small crease in his flesh towards the raging inferno of his groin, and as it came close to the crotch, it began to evaporate, losing its shape.

More and more stinging drops of Billy’s sweat began to drip onto his body that now began to heave and squirm as the slow process of entry continued. Carefully and with firm determination, Billy felt his cock moving inwards, ever so slowly, as they both desired to feel every exquisite moment of entry.

Every muscle inside of his rectum began to moan in pure pleasure as they were carefully but slowly pushed aside. The long hot throbbing cock was greasing its entry with gobs of hot sticky pre cum, but it was not enough to make the passage easy, the heat too much as it easily soaked up the salty mixture. Billy’s legs started to push outwards now, his toes beginning to arch and he felt his bones creaking, the muscles stretching taut and he felt Mike’s own legs tighten and flex as he continued to push down with his hips and his body weight.

The head of his cock was almost past the entry hole, almost fully encased in the tunnel of Mike’s love and his heart began to beat faster, or was it Mike’s heart?  He couldn’t tell now, the roar that filled his ears and head came from within his own chest but also from the heaving body beneath him. They were as one as the beat grew louder with each passing second. Mike’s breathing was shallow already and his own body started to twist and shake as if it had been receiving Billy’s hard cock for hours instead of a few minutes. The pain was delicious; it made him feel so full, so complete that he wished for it to never end.

Mike’s cries echoed briefly in Billy’s conscious, but it was quickly replaced by his own cries of pleasure as his soul began to reach out to the long tendrils of Mike’s soul. The whole room was bathed in a strange light of gold for one second, then it would shift colour into a deep ocean blue or a brilliant emerald green as his body continued to slowly feed Mike’s body with its throbbing love. His legs were drenched in sweat as he continued to push, continued to feel every single nerve inside of Mike’s body answer his call for surrender.

The sight of young kids laughing and playing while Billy stood nearby brought a great cry from his lips, and as his voice bounced against the walls of the room, he saw the images shift and change to two men standing together before a huge crowd of people, all of them cheering as Billy took an oath of office. It all passed before him as his body squirmed and twisted to the slow entry of Billy’s hot throbbing organ. His insides began to grow hotter; they ached intensely as they waited for the throbbing cock to reach them, to pass to them the full feeling of Billy’s love and passion.

One of Mike’s hands reached out and slammed into the bed with a terrific force as Billy’s entry made him groan louder with each passing second. He could hardly catch his breath, the feeling was so intense, so powerful, so overwhelming to his senses. His nerves quivered and tingled as they felt each millimetre of flesh as it passed into his body.

Two blazing blue sapphires burned through the fog around his eyes. He felt the heat and saw the shimmering love of his life come reaching out for him and he reached up, one hand now holding the hard body of Billy above him, the other reaching out and across to run down the flank of his sweating lover. Every nerve sang out in pure joy as he cried out his love, felt it burn into his eyes and roar down past his brain, travelling along his spine and reaching for his beating heart.

Billy could feel Mike’s love as it wandered through his body. It was touching him in places he never knew existed inside of him and his body shuddered with each new touch of that love. Every part of his young body was being caressed and filled by the awesome power of Mike’s tender love and faithful trust in him. He could feel it, taste it in the back of his mouth even as his body continued to slowly push down and forwards, the cock head just starting now to ease past the hot pink hole.

Mike’s breath left him totally as his tight pink hole closed around the thick throbbing cock shaft, firmly holding the hot fiery cock head within his quivering groin. His chest heaved as it struggled for air, his heart raced faster and faster in time with the beat from Billy’s own heart. His soul raced upwards as it danced wildly with Billy’s soul, together they were finally locked in an inseparable embrace of love.

Both bodies were no longer controllable. Their souls danced with wild abandon and their hearts raced out of pure love and pleasure as they slowly but inexplicably came together, to form one single mound of true love. Mike’s thoughts were Billy’s thoughts, Billy’s feelings were Mike’s feelings and together they roamed each other’s inner most sanctums, discovering all that was there and revelling in each new discovery, tasting each new sensation as if it was all for the first time. They visited places they had touched hundreds of times already and yet it was as if they were reaching there for the first time.

Nothing felt old and jaded; each part of the other was fresh and new, like a newborn baby discovering the wonders of the world outside of the womb. No fears could stand before the terrific power of their love nor could any doubts exist in the face of their pure raw passion for each other. Nothing was able to daunt them, taunt them, or harm them as the thick impenetrable cloak of true love covered their entire beings.

Seth glanced up towards the stairs, wondering what was taking Chris so long. He grinned ruefully as he thought about the earlier journey upstairs and what it had revealed. He knew that they would soon be faced with having to explain to both Keith and Tommy about the relationship of Billy and Mike as well as their own relationship. Part of him wished it would happen already, so that they could at least cease this charade while another part of him worried about the fallout such a revelation could bring about.

He sat back into the huge lazy boy chair, the thick legal brief he had been reading, forgotten on his lap as his mind turned to his lover and to his children. In many ways he felt disloyal to Billy and Taylor, not because he was being unfair, but because he was enjoying so much being a father figure to two young boys when he had not done the same for his own flesh and blood. He had tried, but his grief had been too full, too strong at that time, but thank God, he had finally been able to work through it, yet still the pangs of guilt hovered near him.

He never thought he could get a second chance like this, first at finding someone who could touch him as much as Chris was, not just in sexual needs, but in a sense of being a partner in life. It was uncanny how much he could remind him of his wife, and yet be so different. There was no doubt that Chris didn’t have her touch, or her softness, but he did have her love of life and that was everything. Billy had inherited that from her, the way he could just reach out for something and hold it close, making it feel at home next to his heart.

Billy had also inherited his nerves, the constant thinking of what could go wrong, what could happen to ruin something and yet on the outside, be as calm and cool as a cucumber. The analogy of a cucumber made him smile as he remembered that one tossed salad that he and Chris had enjoyed a few nights earlier, those cucumbers sure were tasty. The recent memory only made him smile more and he could feel that tell tale sign in his groin as his mind turned once more to images of Chris, his naked body laying curled into his own naked frame. He had to admit, it felt good to wake up and feel him next to his body, to feel his warmth and to hear his soft wheezing snores as he slept peacefully in his bed.

Strange how he could wake up at all hours of the night, and in seconds he could see Chris’ blue eyes open to stare at him, to see him smile and then cuddle in closer and go back to sleep. It never failed, no matter the time of night, and that was something uncanny and freaky about it all. He had the same type of relationship with Chrissy when she was alive and he always felt in awe of her ability to just wake when he needed it, as if knowing he needed her reassurance, just as it seemed Chris seemed to understand.

These last two weeks had been tough on him, he needed to feel Chris near him and yet they both seemed to have this unnatural fear of letting themselves go. The sex was good, but never as wild or carefree as it had been and he wondered if that was how it was going to be as long as the two young boys were in their care? He wasn’t sure if Tommy would stay, but judging by the two conversations he had had with Tommy’s father, it seemed like they were content to let him be here instead of in their own home.

Keith was different, he was now the sole responsibility of Chris according to the signed decree that Barbara had signed only last week and had been notarized and then signed off by a family court justice. Keith was Chris’ so his presence would now be permanent and that seemed to mean that so would Tommy’s presence be. He really didn’t mind actually, at least for the most part. It felt good to have a young 13-year-old fall asleep in his arms, and then to be able to carry the sleeping boy to his bed.

The feeling of being a father again, was something he had only dreamed about in the last few months, thanks greatly to Billy and Mike’s presence and then Chris’. If Billy had been so determined to have Mike, he doubted if he would be as open and free as he was, but there still was that nagging doubt, those haunting fears from yesterday that troubled him at times, specially since Keith and Tommy had arrived.

Seth sighed as the weight of his concerns pressed down on him. Damn he needed Chris and he looked up to suddenly see Chris standing in front of him. He was about to say something when his mouth flew open. There was this wild look in Chris’ eyes and he hadn’t a clue to what was going on.

“Chris…”

“Seth, I… God I have… I need you”

Chris reached out and with his two hands he picked Seth up from out of the chair, fortunetly for him Seth didn’t resist or it would be doubtful if he could have accomplished the task. His force surprised Seth none the less, and suddenly they both were standing in front of the lazy boy chair, Chris had his face up close to Seth and his eyes glittered with excitement as he moved in closer. His body pressed up against the startled Seth’s and he kissed him hard full on the lips.

“Chris, what has…”

“Seth, please, I can’t… God you won’t… I need you now Seth”

With those words, Chris began to tear at Seth’s shirt and pants as his hands were beyond his control. His body was trembling with desire and he felt like he was in the grip of a raging fever as sweat began to pour from his forehead. He knew he was being unreasonable and taking a big risk, but he couldn’t stop himself. He began to kiss Seth all over, as his hands struggled to strip the tall lawyer at the same time.

“Chris… we can’t, not here…”

“Yes, here, now, we have to Seth, please”

All reason argued against him allowing this to go further, yet the ache in his own groin, the desire in his own limbs made him toss aside the calm reason of his mind and he reached out, his lips now pressing firmly against Chris’ mouth and his own hands now reaching frantically for Chris’ body. He knew he was taking a risk, one that could reveal that which he wished to be secret, but his love wasn’t made for being held captive, not for safety or sanity.

Chris could feel the doubts melt under his relentless stare, the fears sling away under his desperate loving gaze, and he knew that Seth’s hesitation was being replaced by his own wild passions and needs. He stepped forward again, tearing at the clothes, forcing them to slide down and off the tall muscular frame of the lawyer. The small paunch shaking a little as he pulled and pushed at the boxer shorts until they too lay on the floor.

His own clothes were off in less time than it took Seth to push aside his clothes and the two men stared into each other’s eyes. He could feel the lawyer’s piercing stare as it searched his soul for the sudden onslaught of his physical desires. Sweat dotted his brow as he felt his chest heaving, the exertion and desperate need to take Seth was making him wheeze already. He thought he had been in better shape but the overpowering urge for Seth and his body was too much even for his 35 year old body.

The sight of Seth’s massive love tool made Chris’ head spin and he could feel the weakness in his limbs as he stepped up once more, to again taste his man’s lips and to feel his body pressing up against his own. The yearning grew harder inside of him as he struggled with holding onto Seth’s body while still trying to make sense of it all. Instead, all he could see was the slow even push of Billy’s buttocks as it hovered over Mike’s squirming body and a deep wave of blue and gold seemed to weave around the two young joined bodies.

His heart pounded, and his body ached, while his soul strived to give him what he had seen. To give him true love, to give him that unwavering knowledge that the man he was with was his, no one else’s to have, to hold, or to take and he needed to feel that, to have that feeling fill his insides and wipe away the years of pain and sorrow that lay buried deep within him. He needed to make his commitment now, to show his need and find his desire.

Chris broke off their groping, his hands diving for his pants as he searched his pockets, fear and frustration breaking out on his forehead as he ripped at his pants looking for his condom and finding nothing. The back pocket lay in shreds as he cursed, the anger growing as he tossed his pants aside and looked up at Seth.

“Your pants, do you have one there?”

“A condom? Yes, in the back pocket”

“Thank God”

“Chris, calm down… you are going nuts here”

“No, I need to take you, please Seth, don’t… fuck, where is it… okay I got it, thank God”

“Here, let me put it…”

“NO, no Seth, if you touch me there I know I’ll erupt like Mount Vesuvious did, let me, I know I am crazy, but…”

“Okay, go ahead”

“Thanks”

The plastic package was being ripped open before his thanks could even echo once in the still of the den. Nothing seemed to matter as like a madman Chris tore into the package, bring the thin plastic covering out in one swift motion. He stood back up and with his eyes firmly looking down at his throbbing cock, he placed the thin plastic on his dripping cock head, not even wiping the pre cum off, as he rolled the plastic down his shaft, feeling his body tremble to his own touch. He was right; if he had let Seth do it he would have ejaculated, ruining it all, but now he could at least hold it together for a few more seconds.

With the condom unrolled, he stared at his huge cock, the way it stuck straight out from his body at a perfect 90 degrees. He looked at it as it glistened under its plastic covering and he was sure it had grown since he last gazed on it. It looked and felt like it had swollen even more, was thicker and longer than he remembered and he felt it tremble a little as his blood boiled inside, and as more fresh hot blood rushed to help fill it, making it grow even more to his astonished eyes. He looked up to see Seth staring at it too, seeing him lick his lips in anticipation and he knew that he was being totally unreasonable, totally irrational but he needed to be inside of Seth. He needed to know, to feel what Seth felt, to hear his thoughts and to feel his inner most concerns.

Seth watched the frantic efforts of Chris and he wondered if he was losing it. He could feel the excitement, the absolute raw passion that was suddenly bursting forth from Chris. Nothing else seemed to matter as Chris took total charge, he didn’t ask, he just did it and it was a side of Chris he hadn’t experienced before. He waited watching the sweat beads break out on his lover’s body and he could feel his own passion rising with each passing second.

The sight of Chris’ hard penis made his body tremble a little and his buttocks clenched tighter, as if trying to stretch the muscles or get them in working order so they wouldn’t slip later on. His whole body grew hot as he watched the huge cock grow right in front of him. He was sure he could see the hot red blood as it flowed down the body and into the throbbing penis that pointed straight at him. His mind no longer held sway as his heart grew hot and beat faster with each second that his eyes remained locked on that pulsing pole of love.

His nerves twitched as he could feel the moment getting closer. Every part of him was on edge now, the adrenalin flowing now as he knew that no matter what, there would be no turning back now. His limbs grew hard as his muscles tightened and he felt his stomach being sucked in and his lungs continued to drink in huge gulps of fresh air, stocking up for the coming tryst. Seth felt like he was about to explode himself, the excitement was getting stronger and his heart continued to race forward as his body broke out into a sweat now, tiny little beads of water forming all over his naked body. He just stood there, waiting patiently on the outside, his insides in a complete turmoil as they readied themselves for Chris’ entry.

Chris finished unrolling the condom and finished watching his fully erect cock grew hard. It was harder than he ever felt, and he knew that it wouldn’t last long, his desire almost too much as he saw the thin plastic swelling already with the pre cum and for a second he wondered if it would hold, knowing that he would soon expel more of his milk than he had ever released before. The full balls dangled beneath him as he walked over to Seth, his hands outstretched as he touched his man and for one more time, he pressed his lips against those of Seth. The fire that burned inside of him was fanned to greater heights now.

His hands held onto Seth’s shoulders, while his body arched inwards, his hips shoved forward so that his hard throbbing cock now rubbed up against Seth’s groin. He could feel the hard man meat of his lover’s cock as it slid past the small opening between his own legs. He closed his legs even more so; holding the hot meat tightly and feeling it swell even larger under his clenched thigh muscles.

The feel of raw animal lust overcame him as he breathed in deeply. The smell of sex was in the air but more than that, he could smell Chris’ scent and it drove his heart wild. The pounding only grew faster, the racing of his pulse only increased as Chris’ scent travelled through his entire body. He felt it flowing into every part of his being, feeling it nestle inside and stay there so that with each draw of his breath, each pull on his lungs, a small part of that scent would flow with the oxygen that coursed through his veins.

As the fever of lust grew on him, he could feel the fires deep inside roar upwards, consuming everything in its path as he felt his body being turned around. His hands now rested on the arms of the lazy boy chair where he had sat only a few minutes earlier. His legs moved out and apart, spreading his cheeks as he felt Chris stepping forward. His whole body tightened as he awaited the next move, the next step in Chris’ domination of him.

He had been taken aback by the easy manner in which he had gotten Seth’s body to turn away from him and to lean forward, his buttocks clearly shaking as it stuck outwards, his legs braced apart and his cheeks open slightly. His eyes bulged as he stared at the naked rear of his lover, feeling how much he loved him and yet feeling like he needed more, needed and wanted more. Chris began to move forward and as his own legs touched Seth’s, he felt the force of his love rising in his body and instead of just going further, Chris fell to his knees and in a second he had his face pressing between the two quaking cheeks of Seth.

His mouth moved inwards, his nose pushing aside the flesh, his hands reached up and grabbed hold of the shivering cheeks and with a desperation he hadn’t known he had, he spread apart the hot skin, exposing the warm pink hole to his lips. He kissed the hole, feeling it tremble to the sudden pressure, then his tongue darted out and he licked up and below the quivering hole. The hot saliva added to the running liquid of sweat that now dripped down from Seth’s back, and ran along the thin hidden valley of his derrier.

The raspy edge of his tongue curled around and he made his tongue look like a curved shovel, round and edged at the tip and hollow inside. He pushed his tongue out, the edge biting into the soft tissue of the sphincter muscle, feeling the tension give to his pressure and he was inside in a heartbeat. He could feel the fire raging inside of Seth as his tongue darted in, pushing aside the surprised muscles and he then quickly withdrew his tongue, feeling the muscles as they reached out to grab hold of his raspy hot tongue. Now he moved the thinner tongue up the long valley, until he had reached the sky above and saw the tall back muscles come into view.

Seeing those muscles, Chris closed his eyes and let his tongue go racing back downwards, travelling the same path but going even further this time, ignoring the puckering hole until he felt the hard leather of Seth’s scrotum. He licked out, brushing the two large balls, feeling them shake and quiver to his tongues touch and he felt his own body quivering in response.

Seth gasped as he felt Chris’ tongue darting between his cheeks. He could feel the hardness as it pushed into his rectum, past his hole and then it was out again, licking at him, making the tiny hairs that lined his valley stand on edge. The nerves twisted and tingled with the hard raspy feel of Chris’ tongue and he groaned constantly now, his mind blank as his body shuddered with each new sensation. His hands gripped hard the leather of the chair; his fingers digging deep into the plush leather, making his hands ache and grow numb from the pressure he was applying to them.

His ears echoed to the roar of passion, Chris’ cries were distant and mingled with his own strident voice as he struggled with just being able to stay in position as Chris’ mouth worked his buttocks over. He groaned, moaned, and even cried as the joy came into his body, wave after wave rolling through his body. Every nerve tingled, every fibre of his soul shook with each lick, and each touch of that fantastic tongue. His legs grew hard as they held him upright, barely, while the tongue continued to circle the puckering hole. His body ached for it to enter him, to be followed by an even bigger and more filling organ, but for now all he could think of was to try and suck that jerking wet love machine inside of his body.

Chris moved his hands now, each of his fingers now pressed and dug into Seth’s fleshy cheeks, digging down till they touched bone and then with each finger carefully holding on, he pulled back, his hands also now pressing in and outwards. The two quivering mounds of flesh gave to the strong firm pull and his rectum opened like a can of sardines. Fresh air blew past the sweating face that was now pressing inwards and cooled the ardour for a second, but the darting heat of Chris’ tongue quickly replaced it as it no longer circled the puckering hole but dug right in. It pushed aside the waiting muscles to fill the ache inside and it drove hard.

His tongue licked upwards, then downwards as it continued to push deeper inside of the hot cavern that was Seth’s rectum. The pink hole no longer held tight, its muscle spent and its energy gone. The velvet lining now felt the raspy edges of Chris’s tongue and they quivered and shook with each wild jerk of the tongue as it coated every inch inside with its salty saliva. The tip poked and prodded, refusing to miss a single spot inside and it felt like a corkscrew was inside of him, as it twisted and turned, pushing and prodding, giving him total pleasure.

The fires inside grew hot and he cried out now, the joy almost unbearable as his body continued to tremble with each passing second. His own cock was no longer dribbling pre cum, it was now almost a steady stream of hot grey cream as it fell unheeded onto the leather of the chair. His hands ached, the knuckles white from the pressure being applied, his knees became wobbly, as he felt weak in the head as Chris’ tongue reached further inside of him.

He had lost the battle the second he had seen that look in Chris’ eyes and yet he wondered why he always fought it? Was there some reason he couldn’t fathom that always made him wait, always made him weigh this and that first? Or could it simply be that he was still bound by the shackles of a straight society and it was hard for him to let go of his inner most inhibitions? As Chris’ tongue worked deeper into his body he felt the fears of being discovered running from the flicking tongue. He could feel his anxiety’s seeking shelter in the deepest recess of his body as Chris’ tongue poked, prodded, licked and just filled him with an insane desire and lust. Seth’s entire body was now reduced to a jumbled mass of quivering nerves and straining muscles.

His mouth was pressing hard, every inch of his tongue was fully extended deep into the recess of Seth’s body and he could feel his nose pressing up against Seth’s tailbone, digging into the soft flesh and breathing the wonderful scent that was his saviour. Funny, he never really thought about that, how the relationship with Seth had made him a new man, had given him not only a chance at love and friendship, but had given him the precious gift of being able to be a father.

The idea of going through life as he was before Seth was too frightening for him to contemplate anymore, the idea of not knowing the love and warmth that he felt as he lay next to Seth at night, feeling his heart beating while listening to the loud raspy sound of Seth’s snores, was too terrifying. Just the mere thought of being ‘sethless’ brought a chill to his entire body and he found his ache growing. Just the thought was enough to send him into a desperate grope for his man and he found his hands digging in even harder, his tongue almost being forced from its attachment to his mouth as he tried to taste every single inch of his man, to reassure himself and to send away his demons.

He could feel the terrible tremor growing in his legs and he brought his long thick tongue slowly out. It was reluctant but obeyed its master and now he could feel the edge of his tongue as it slid upwards, the tip still buried past the tight pink quivering hole and then it too was free, licking at the puckering hole with a last ditch attempt to re enter the warmth and comfort of Seth’s body. He moved his face upwards, the tongue coming along reluctantly, as it slid up the hot moist valley till it reached the very top where his lips now pressed together. The tongue was secured inside his mouth as he pressed his lips hard against the very tailbone where his nose had rested and now he just kissed that space, that small little spot where the beginnings of Seth’s valley laid.

Seth groaned as he felt the sudden void inside of his body and he could feel a drop of Chris’ saliva drip past his puckered hole and he shivered hard. His whole body seemed to just sway back and forth as he felt Chris’s hands now resting on his hips and he felt a strange glowing heat coming closer to his aching loins. The hands were holding him, yet they too were shaking from excitement as Chris stepped in closer and Seth held his breath as he felt the hot throbbing cock start to slide down his valley. The very same valley that only seconds earlier had experienced the wonderful ministrations of Chris’ tongue.

One hand now had left his hips and the other was racing upwards, now leaning hard against his bend back as he felt Chris step inwards. The hot throbbing cock head was now pressing against his tiny pink hole and as he took a deep breath a sudden sharp pain lanced into his body, it roared up his spine to spark his heart that suddenly raced ahead in a blur. He cried out from the pain as it made him shake and shudder and he felt the strong push as his rectum was once more filled with a part of Chris.

The touch of his throbbing cock head against Seth’s puckered hole was too much for him. His heart burst and his soul was suddenly fanned into a giant raging forest fire and he found his hips pushing with all their might forwards. His whole body trembled and then shook as he ground his hips into the jiggling flesh of Seth’s buttocks. The soft wet flesh was too much for his senses and he cried out as he thrust harder and then pulled back, but before he could get halfway out, he found himself leaning back inwards, sending his thick throbbing cock once more back into Seth’s body. He couldn’t stop, he needed to reach the furthest regions and he pounded his body into Seth’s.

It was like he was on fire, his whole body was melting under the heat as his throbbing cock continued to pound faster and harder into Seth’s body. He couldn’t stop and the whole world suddenly ceased to exist for him. All thought of money, stocks, tuitions, groceries, left his mind as all he could think of was to reach that one special spot, the one he had seen a 16 year old version of his lover reaching for and he needed that, he wanted it like he had never wanted anything else in the entire world. He was on a quest to reach that one single spot where everything joined, where he no longer was just Chris Jenkins and Seth Bradford but that they were one, just one single ball of love.

His ears rang to the sound of his body crashing into Seth’s body and all he could feel was the hard jolt each time his groin was ground into Seth’s cheeks. The only sound to reverberate in his mind was that of a stinging slapping sound as his flesh drove hard into the wet shaking cheeks, his penis digging for the furthest spot inside possible and then he could feel it. Just a brief touch on the head of his dick, as he thrust hard, as he moved his hands around to grab an even tighter hold of Seth’s well muscled body.

It was there, he could feel it and he cried out as he struggled to send his massive thick pole back insides, to make it reach past that point, to get that hot fire that burned deep inside of Seth to consume him and he could feel his body melting now. The flesh no longer elastic or pliable, but now a molten mass as it flowed towards the source of its heat. He could feel himself collapsing inwards, as his body lost shape and definition and all the time all he could think of was to reach in deeper, to push in harder, to force every drop of his melting body into the puckering hole.

Chris felt his cock head push in, he could feel Seth’s fires surround the jerking head and he found himself leaning hard on the top of Seth’s back as his whole body shuddered then finally exploded in a single blast. His cock jerked hard and he could feel the thin rubber coating swell as his milk came flying out in one giant stream. He trembled as every part of his body uncoiled; his nerves rang out and shook as they felt the warm love coming. Seth’s fires of passion consumed his whole body and he trembled in fear and joy. He had reached it, if only for a second in time, but he had reached it and he never felt so happy, so complete as he did for that brief instant of time.

Seth couldn’t stand up to the beating he was getting. His whole body ached as he felt the overwhelming presence of Chris’ love flowing into his body. He groaned loudly as his body absorbed every kilowatt of energy that was being poured into his older body. His limbs tingles and his mind grew foggy and distant as he surrendered to the wonderful feeling of being totally loved. Every part of him grew numb from every sensation but the one, the one strong sensation of love as it flowed into his limbs, his veins, his muscles, his tissues. Everywhere his heart and soul looked was filled with the heat and presence of Chris’ love and he shuddered, feeling his arms giving way, his legs no longer able to hold him and the cold leather came up to greet him as his physical body collapsed onto the chair.

As Seth’s body collapsed under him, he felt the fire growing away from him and cried out, sending his body forward with the very last ounce of his strength to try and capture that feeling one last time. His body groaned, his limbs surrendered to the power and he found himself falling down, his legs played outwards, no longer feeling, no longer able to hold a feather let alone him. His body was suddenly glued to Seth’s and he found himself lying prone on top of the heaving body of his lover, his mind in shock from the amazing joy it had just felt. Every part inside of him was quivering as it realized that it had reached that spot, had actually touched it and it was more than he had ever imagined. The love and passion that was there was too much, too intense and his nerves were overloaded, no longer able to function, no longer able to register anything as his body continued to just shake uncontrollably.

His cock had slid out and his body had slumped down and now lay on the floor, his head resting on the still heaving body of Seth. His eyes could barely focus on anything; they were too misted over from sweat and tears of pure joy. His body would still tremble every few seconds as his lungs tried to catch a breath. His heart was pounding, making his ears roar to its beat and he gasped for air as he lay there, exhausted and totally spent. His hands jerked in spasms, his mind unable to control any part of his body as he still was in awe over the immense feelings of love that had ran wild through his whole body only minutes earlier.

With Chris’ weight off his back, Seth was able to slowly slide himself down from the sticky leather chair. His body ached in places he didn’t know he even had and he felt totally drained of all life. His mind was still in shock from the unbelievable feelings that had so suddenly overwhelmed his sensory perceptions. Nothing was left inside of him as he lay there, panting like a heat riddled dog. His tongue hand out of his mouth as he tried to draw in fresh air and his chest continued to heave under the strain of breathing.

For several minutes, the two men lay there on the floor, panting and gasping for air as if they were two dogs that had spent the last five hours running free in a field chasing rabbits. They just sat there, each of them lost in the wild rush of adrenalin that still coursed through their bodies, still made them feel the joy that earlier had swept through them. It was a feeling they had never really experienced, and this time it was as if they were just getting a taste of things to come.

“Chris…”

“I am sorry Seth, I just… I don’t know I just couldn’t help myself, not after… well not after what I saw”

The words were soft and in short bursts, both of them still under the power of limited reserve energy, their bodies still trying to figure out how to re charge itself and still partly, wishing they could experience that one more time.

“What did you see? When… oh man I ache”

“Me too, upstairs, when I went to check on the boys”

“Oh, yeah, shit you were gone a long time”

“I know, Seth… I never thought I would say this, but God Billy and Mike are hot”

“You are telling me? Tell me something I don’t know”

“Okay, yeah I guess ‘hot’ really isn’t the word anyhow, it is more like awesome, oh Seth I wanted to run and get you and yet, well, I just couldn’t move, it was like I was captured in a spell”

“What are you saying? Did you peek in on them?”

“They left the door open, I heard them moan and well… I thought I’d close the door for them, I didn’t want Keith or Tommy to come out and walk in on them”

“Yeah, guess we do need to remind them about keeping the doors closed, still…”

“It was amazing Seth, it wasn’t like there was two bodies on the bed, and the wild colours, it was as if I was watching a laser show in the city, the way it just seemed to explode all around them, and yet, yet it was almost as if I could see the love, the passion, they had for each other. I don’t know, maybe those mushrooms for dinner were not your ordinary ones, but it felt like I could see all these new strange things as Billy started to make love to Mike. It was… I can’t describe it”

“Sounds like it was more than the mushrooms, but I have to say, I rather enjoyed the results of your voyeurism”

“It wasn’t like that, honest”

“Okay, I believe you”

“No, you don’t understand Seth, I wanted to leave, the second I saw them together, the second I felt Mike’s eyes on me, and yet it was as if they were holding me there, as if, I know this sounds crazy, but It was like they were holding me prisoner, to show me, to tell me that I could have what they have, with you, if I just stood there and watched.”

“I don’t… you mean Mike saw you?”

“He had to, I could feel his eyes boring into mine and it was like a voice echoed inside of me, telling to stand still, telling me I couldn’t leave until Billy had opened him, had shown me what I could have with you, and I …I know, it is crazy, hearing his voice in my head, but I did, I swear it Seth”

“I believe you Chris, honest I do, what happened then?”

“I don’t know, it was like watching a movie being played out just for me, I could feel all this love, this heat that just seemed to grow and grow and it never got colder, it never shrank and I could feel their doubts, their fears floating around the room, as if they were looking for a place to rest, to hide from the power of their love but they couldn’t Seth, it just wouldn’t let them rest and I knew then that that is what I wanted too, to have that kind of love with you, the kind that only grew stronger with each touch, each kiss, each second of being together, and I knew it was there, I just had to reach for it”

“So you came running down here”

“And raped you, more or less I guess… yes, I just had to be inside of you Seth, to reach that special spot that lies in there for us, and Seth…”

“Yes… I felt it too Chris, I felt you reach it”

“YES and GOD I AM, sorry, I am so exhausted and yet all I can think of is wanting to take you upstairs and start all over again, am I sick or what?”

“No, not sick, well not in the sense you are thinking, Billy tried to explain it to me once, I didn’t understand it then, not sure if I do now but I am thinking that I am getting closer to understanding him and Mike.”

“I don’t know, you see them rolling around with Keith and Tommy, playing like a couple of kids and then you see this, it really is like they are two different people at times. I mean Seth, you couldn’t believe how tender and slow Billy was being, how Mike was feeling every part of it, and you could see that they both wanted to go faster but needed to go slow, it was the most amazing sight I have ever witnessed, I mean I have seen sex before, but this, this is something that goes beyond anything I have seen or even imagined, and its from two 16 year olds, that is the really amazing part”

“Maybe it is because they are 16 Chris, I mean, they haven’t been fully indoctrinated by society yet, they haven’t had to experience the outside world for that long, what maybe 11 years or so now? Us, on the other hand, we’ve existed in our secret life for 20 or more years, maybe that is it? They are still virgins in the arena of life?”

“Makes sense I guess, but still, to see two people like that, showing such restraint, such patience as if they were actually feeling every second, taking each second and living it through their whole body instead of just snatches of it at a time, instead of being overwhelmed by a host of sensations, it really was amazing, I mean I could actually see Billy’s cock as it moved… oh my God”

“What?”

“Seth, I didn’t realize… they don’t use condoms”

“What? Sure they do, I mean look at how much we spend each week”

“Yeah, but that is for us, they never ask for any… oh shit, what do we do?”

“Maybe they did use a condom? I mean they can be pretty transparent at times, maybe you were too far away?”

“No, I am certain”

“Well, okay, maybe this time they didn’t use one, I guess that it is hard to always remember, specially when the mood overtakes you, I mean would you have stopped if you hadn’t found one in my pants?”

“Shit, I don’t know, I doubt it, I mean I was so stoked up by watching them, by what they were experiencing, and well, the idea that I too could have that with you, man that was just too powerful… no I guess maybe I wouldn’t have stopped, and that scares me now”

“Why? We are careful, one time wouldn’t really be all that serious”

“YES, yes it would, oh God, to think I could have sex with you and put you at risk like that, oh shit, I can’t… Seth we have to make sure, we have to promise each other that if we don’t have a condom, no sex, none… please, I couldn’t live myself if I gave you anything bad”

“Come on, you know we are both clean, no std’s or stuff like that”

“I know and I know that as long as we are faithful to each other we won’t get any of that stuff, but what about AIDS? Have you thought of that?”

“Actually Chris, no not really, I guess I have sort of thought about it, when we were first having relations, but no, not really, you?”

“No, hardly at all actually and yet we should,  I mean there have been so many who have died already, I don’t know if I could live if I knew that I gave you AIDS”

“Well I have had my test and am clean, you?”

“Same, but that doesn’t guarantee a damn thing, I mean I heard that it can lay dormant inside for up to ten years or longer… and never show up on a test, I don’t know… maybe we should get more information on this”

“I heard that too, but thought it was the same as when they first thought you could get it from kissing, which we know you can’t”

“Yeah, still, it scares me and if Billy and Mike aren’t using protection, oh God, how do we talk to them about this? I mean if I say anything or you do, they are going to want to know how we know they don’t use condoms”

“Well, I guess, but damn it, these are my kids… sorry, our kids.”

“Our? You… thanks Seth”

“You know this brings up a hell of a lot of issues, I mean what about wills? What about guardianship if something happens to one of us? Man, I just never thought about this stuff before, I mean you would think I would have, but…”

“What do we do Seth?”

“I think for now, we get dressed before anyone surprises us, then I guess, we think it over and talk more about it tomorrow morning”

“What about the condoms? I mean we can’t let them keep on having unprotected sex, can we?”

“I don’t know, no, I suppose not but, well it isn’t a conversation I want to have with my son and his lover, but I guess it is one we had better have”

“Can we wait till morning? I mean you know those two, they wake up and it’s the first thing they do before they even go pee, least that is what is sure sounds like”

“Yeah, it is, hmm, how many condoms do we have left?”

“Shit, I don’t know, let me think, I guess maybe 6 or so, tomorrow is when I normally stock up for the week”

“I thought so, well, guess we should maybe see if they are still awake and if so, guess we’ll have that talk”

“And if they aren’t?”

“Then I think we will leave a note for them along with 3 of our condoms”

“Why do I have this wish that they are fast asleep?”

“Haha, guess it’s a natural fatherly instinct, to not have that ‘sex’ talk with the kids, even if they are boys”

“Haven’t you had one with them yet Seth?”

“Yeah, but that was so long ago, things were different then, and what about you and Keith?”

“Christ, you had to bring that up? I don’t know, I mean have this kind of talk with them right after all the stuff they have just gone through about jerking off?  Don’t you think it could make it seem like we are trying to get them to stop that?”

“Well one set of boys first, besides I don’t think we have to worry that Keith and Tommy are having that kind of sex yet, or with each other either”

“God I hope not, I don’t know if I could handle that”

“Yeah, but don’t worry, they are only 13″

“I know, that is what scares me Seth”

“Why?”

“Isn’t that around when Billy first was attracted to Mike?”

“SHIT!”

The two men got dressed in silence, both of them lost in thoughts of fatherhood. Seth was a bit afraid, Billy was a formidable young man and he wondered how he would take his father’s interference in his sex life? It really wasn’t being interfering, but would Billy and Mike see it that way? God, to think he could lose them because they were practising unsafe sex and at their age, the risk was never more dangerous. What happened if they split up? No, he knew that wouldn’t happen, but what about before last year? He doubted if Mike had been a virgin when he started seeing Billy and he knew Billy certainly wasn’t a virgin.

Pulling his pants on, he felt the flapping fabric of his ripped back pocket and he touched it, thinking of the wild passion that he had just experienced and he knew it was nothing to what Billy and Mike felt for each other. Chris had been honest, he doubted if he would have stopped if there hadn’t been a condom, so how did he see that there always was one on hand? For starters he could make damn sure that right after he used one from his pants he replaced it, but what about elsewhere? What about when they were out by the hot tub or the pool or the kitchen even? They had done it there before, but how did he make sure that they had condoms available? He couldn’t very well go running upstairs looking with his boner flapping in the wind, could he?

Chris pulled his shirt on and his eyes traversed over to stare at Seth get dressed. His body began to ache again as he saw the strong body move gracefully in getting dressed. He watched the hands as they pulled and he smiled as he saw the flapping fabric that was once Seth’s back pocket. God, he had been an animal and he frowned now, worrying about how close he came to putting Seth at risk. How could he be so selfish to want so much and risk it all for some physical pleasure, no matter how strong that pleasure was? Was he that uncaring?

His heart ached and he knew that he needed to find an answer to all this. He could think of no one he could discuss this with and he felt rather lonely at that instant. Why couldn’t the world be less rigid, and let people live their lives as they choose? He wished he could just sit down and discuss all this, to find out if he was just a sex craved lunatic or if he really was in love. Deep inside he believed he was in love, the feelings that had just passed through his body couldn’t be just a physical thing and yet, it was physical.

Buttoning his shirt, he realized that there was nothing more precious in his life than the man in front of him and the young boy who lay asleep upstairs. They were his life and reason for existing, how could he put them at risk? He needed to find a way to insure that when he was with Seth he had a condom, there was no alternative to that, the only question was, could he remember to always check? He would have to talk to Keith too, something he wasn’t sure yet how to do, but just as they couldn’t let it go for Billy something inside of him told him he couldn’t let it go with Keith either.

Dressed at last, the two walked up the stairs to their bedroom. They stopped by Billy’s room and heard the soft sounds of blissful sleep coming from inside, the door still ajar and Seth looked in, with Chris peering over his shoulder. He saw the bed, and the one shape in the middle of the bed and he knew that it really was two shapes, but they were so close together, there was no way to distinguish one from the other. He sighed, wondering if he and Chris would ever be that much in love, and deep inside he felt all his fears and doubts start to shake and shiver in their own pool of fear. His body was aching again, and he smiled as he saw the shimmering light of the moon glowing across his two boys. Yes, he would feel that way about Chris, he already did, it just was taking its damn sweet time in overtaking them both.

In their bedroom, Chris began to round up the condoms, to check and see just how many they had left while Seth wrote two short notes. Each one identical, except written with the order of the names changed. It was short and to the point, it simply said:

Here, use these until we talk later

And he signed them with      ‘your ancient parents’, which brought a kiss from Chris, and they realized that once more they had taken a step forward as lovers.

They quietly walked back to Billy’s bedroom and they each took a note and 2 condoms and placed the note on the two night tables. One beside Billy, the other next to Mike and they both stood up, looked at each other and smiled. As they turned to leave, they felt two pairs of eyes on them and looked down to see two heads peering up at them. Chris felt Billy’s eyes on him and he felt an icy grip around his heart until he saw the face smile and lay back down into Mike’s arms. Seth watched as Mike’s eyes looking into his and he felt a strange glow begin deep inside of him and then he saw Mike wink at him, and then once more nestle down, his arm pulling Billy closer into him and he just, well just seemed to glow as he fell back asleep.

Chris sat next to Seth on their king sized bed, sweat just now beginning to ease from his forehead as he shook. Seth was just as shaken as they sat there, unsure of what to say or do.

“I swear that if I hadn’t seen Billy born, I would say he was an Alien’s love child, god it is unbelievable Chris”

“Tell me about it, him and Mike scare the living crap out of me, how can they be so… so as one? It is totally freaking me out, like they were expecting us to stop by”

“Yeah, and I can just hear them tomorrow, actually not hear them, but see them, the way they will look at us, their eyes wide and yet gleaming, as if we are all sharing a secret but a secret that only they know the full story of”

“Exactly, God, I wonder if…”

“What?”

“I don’t know, do you think Keith and Tommy heard them earlier?”

“Shit, I hope not, I mean it is going to be hard enough to explain all this to myself, never mind a couple of 13 year olds”

Just then, they heard a soft knock on the bedroom door and turned to face each other. Now what, they thought as Chris asked who it was. When Keith’s voice came through the door, Seth reached out and grabbed Chris’ hand. He squeezed it tight and then released it while telling Keith to come on in

“What are you doing up this late Keith?”

“I couldn’t sleep”

“You okay? Come on, come and sit on my lap”

Keith ran to his father and then climbed up on his lap as he looked around the big master bedroom. His eyes were wide open and he stared for a brief second at Seth and then his father.

“Okay, so what is troubling you Keith?”

“I don’t know, uh, dad, how do you know when you are in love?”

“In love? Oh, I don’t know, there are lots of things I guess, why?”

“I want to know, is it, well does it make you all goofy?”

“Yes, I guess that is one way, it does make you silly at times, but it is much more than that Keith”

“Oh”

Keith sat there, a quizzical look on his face. Both Seth and Chris tried to avoid each other, not sure where this conversation would lead to or for that matter why it was even coming up this late at night. Seth was afraid to ask what had brought this on and he could see tiny beads of sweat forming on Chris’ forehead too.

“Dad, is it wrong to love another guy?”

“Wrong, no, why?”

“Well if it isn’t wrong, how come it is supposed to be a secret?”

“Who says that Keith?”

“Tommy does, he says guys don’t tell other people about that, cause they get beat up on if they do, why?”

Chris looked at Seth, the expression on his face begging for help and yet Seth didn’t know how to answer him. Was this just a casual question between two curious boys or was there more to it?

“Uh, why what Keith?”

“Why do people beat up on guys who love guys? I mean isn’t love for everyone or just for guys and girls?”

“Well, uh, love, real love is for whoever wants it, it isn’t just for guys and girls but for guys and guys, and even girls and girls”

“Girls do it with girls too? Yeech, that sounds icky, how do girls do it? I mean they don’t have any fun guns do they?”

Chris almost burst a gut as he heard his son’s comments. He also felt a sudden attack of pure panic as he struggled with trying to handle several different conversations all in one. He was not getting much help from Seth and he dared not look at him right now, the idea of ‘fun guns’ was just too much for him

“Fun guns? You mean your penis?”

“Yeah, Tommy calls it a fun gun cause its fun to watch it go off, isn’t it?”

“Haha, yes, yes son it is fun to watch it go off”

“Cool, is that why Billy and Mike always try to make each other’s go off?”

“Huh? Billy and Mike? Uh, well, oh I guess so, you know, you shouldn’t be talking about what Billy and Mike do with anyone else, you do know that?”

“Dad… geez, I am not a little kid anymore”

“No, no I guess in some ways you aren’t, but you do know, right?”

“Yes, I know, but well…”

“Well what?”

“Well, I don’t know, how can you see it go off if you put in the other person’s bum?”

“Huh? Uh…”

“I mean, Billy or Mike are always doing that, is that like a grown up way?”

Seth almost fell off the bed when Keith had mentioned the fun gun thing, now he felt the same panic gripping his heart as the one that had not just gripped Chris’ heart, but was now squeezing it very hard. Despite their efforts it looked like Keith and Tommy had seen Billy and Mike doing it, and now they could either tell them the truth or lie to them. This was the hardest part of being a parent, just what do you tell the inquisitive mind of your child? Would they be able to understand all that was involved in explaining gay love? Could they handle it, and if not, what would that do to the family they were struggling to build?

All of this passed across his mind in a second and he turned to look at the ashen face of his lover, and he realized that Chris was having a tough time breathing, never mind answering the very tough question. He didn’t think he had any answers either but he had to take the pressure off.

“Uh Keith, I think you just think you saw it that way, I mean maybe they were just rubbing it underneath, you know, sort of like a more private way than maybe, uh, well than, uh, the way you and Tommy do it”

“You think so? I dunno, Tommy said it sure looked like they were putting it right inside, I said no, cause it would hurt, but then, well…”

“Uh yes, well maybe Tommy didn’t have the uh, right angle to see?”

“I guess, oh well I can ask Billy, he’ll tell me”

Panic was no longer an issue, down right terror was taking hold as Keith seemed unaware of what he was causing by his casual questions. Damn, all of their plans had suddenly exploded in their faces and it looked like they would have more than just a talk about condoms to contend with in the morning, but they had to first dampen the fire for the night.

“Well, I am sure he would tell you, but maybe it is something private between him and Mike and he wouldn’t appreciate you questioning him on it?”

“No, he said we could ask him and Mike anything, honest, he’s neat dad, he’s like a real big brother”

“Uh, well still maybe he was just being nice, I think you should not bother him and Mike so much. I know you really like him, and he is sort of like a big brother to you and Tommy, so you don’t want to damage that do you?”

Keith sat there and looked puzzled for a few seconds. He did like Billy and well, he had told them both that they could ask him anything, so why was his dad wanting him not to? He would have to ask Tommy, he would know, he knew much more about this adult stuff than he did.

“But he said we could Dad, he wouldn’t lie to us would he?”

“No Keith, Billy didn’t lie to you, it isn’t that at all, it is just, well it is private, he may feel uncomfortable about talking about it”

“But, well if you really think… but then why would he and Mike say we could? They do like us don’t they?”

“Of course they do Keith, they really do”

“Okay, then I can ask them?”

“Uh, well, Seth?”

“Yes Keith, you can ask them, but ask them first if they mind, you don’t want to make them feel like they have to talk about it”

“Okay, I guess, boy it sure is complicated being in a family”

“Yes, it is, you do like being here don’t you son?”

“Uh huh, I do, you like me being here don’t you dad?”

“Oh very much son, very much”

“So do I Keith, it is really nice to have you living with us”

“And Tommy?”

“haha, yes and Tommy too”

“Can he stay forever with me too?”

“Well, uh, maybe he will want to leave one day Keith, you know he’s growing up and maybe he’ll find a nice girl and want to be with her”

“No he won’t”

“Well you don’t know that”

“Yes I do, he told me he won’t do that”

“Oh? Well, give him time”

“Why? Does time make you change how you feel now?”

“At your age it can Keith, I know when I was your age I didn’t think much of girls and then when I got older I found I couldn’t think of anything else, that is when I met Billy’s mom and well, we had a family together”

“But then you found my daddy, right?”

“HUH?”

Seth was suddenly as white as Chris. His blood drained from his entire face and he felt his arms go stiff and numb as the shock of the statement filled his heart with dread. This was going to fast for him and he hadn’t a clue as to how to answer that question. He could see the dark eyes as they rested on his face, the young face looking at him, all innocent or was he? God, the kid could be a lawyer the way he was able to suddenly put a person off balance. Maybe that was his calling too, and stumbled as he tried to answer.

“It is okay, I think you and daddy make a great set of parents, Tommy thinks I shouldn’t say anything, but, I think it is neat having two dads, no one else at school has that”

“Uh, son, you don’t tell people at school that do you?”

“No, I want to at times, but I know better, it is like, well, one big family secret, the kind you don’t tell, Tommy told me that one, he said all families have some secrets that is only for talking inside, not for telling others.”

“Well good for Tommy”

“Yeah, he really is nice, but he tells me his secrets cause he says I am his family, I think that is sweet, don’t you daddy?”

“Yes, yes it is Keith”

“Okay, I should go now, I think Tommy is missing me”

“Huh? Missing you?”

“Yeah, I don’t know, but we don’t like being apart. I am really glad that poppa Seth said Tommy could stay with us… you do like him don’t you poppa Seth?”

“Sure, yes I do Keith”

“Cool, maybe he can be your little boy like I am daddy’s?”

“Uh, well we’ll have to see, he does have a dad Keith”

“Not really, he thinks you would be better, he really likes you, besides, if he becomes your little boy, then he won’t ever have to leave here, …I really would hate it if he had to leave, he makes me feel good”

“Uh well Keith, there isn’t much I or your father can do about that, at least not that I can think of right now, but we will try to see that he can stay with you, but you know things happen.”

“I know, but you got dad to spend more time with me, and you got Mike to come and live here for Billy, and well, you did tell dad he could bring Tommy too, so I know you will find away, besides Billy says that when you want to do something, no one can stop you, something, uh, oh I know, he said you were like a mule or something, I don’t know, Mike told him to be nice but I thought it was nice, it is nice isn’t it dad? I like mules, they are smaller horses, right?”

“Haha, yes son they are smaller horses in a way, and it is nice, and yes Seth is like a mule”

“Gee thanks Chris”

“Anytime, haha”

“See, I knew it was nice, I gotta go, Tommy is gonna be mad if I don’t get back soon”

“Okay, are you okay now?”

“Yes, I am glad tomorrow is Saturday, Billy will be home all day so I can talk to him, he is so cool, I like it when he and mike play with us, they are great big brothers”

“Well, just don’t hog all their free time, they like to be alone too”

“I know, so do Tommy and I, but it is nice to be with them, except when Mike or Billy get that goofy look, then we know its time to take off”

“A goofy look?”

“Yeah, Tommy gets that look too, its when we go and close our door, cause I really really like it when Tommy gets that goofy look… I think Billy really likes it too, he gets a big boner too, haha”

“Keith…”

“It’s true… just like you and poppa Seth do at dinner”

Keith jumped off his father’s lap and ran out the door, leaving it open and in a second, they heard his bedroom door close with a bit of a bang. They looked at each other, both of them in a state of pure shock. They had so much to think about and to discuss and the alarm clock showed that it was getting late. Chris was dripping from sweat and Seth handed him a towel from off his chair.

There was so much to discuss, and it looked like their Saturday was going to be more than just a casual day at home. Damn, he realized they had a 9am tee off but that would have to wait. He stared at Chris and while his heart was still pounding away out of fear, he felt a strange glow growing in the pit of his stomach. He could feel the flames of his love being fanned alive by the mere presence of Chris next to him. His stomach felt funny and he looked into Chris’ eyes, to see terror raging inside, but deep down, past the darkness, he could see a small flicker of gold and he knew that Chris was also feeling the same desire.

God, they were terrible, tomorrow their world may come crashing down around their heads and all he could think of was how wonderful it would be to taste that throbbing cock of Chris’ and feel his milk as it slid down his throat. Was he becoming a sexoholic or was he just madly in love? Was there a difference?

Chris felt like he was about to shake apart. He was sure that every limb and body part was trembling from fear and yet when he felt Seth looking at him, the quaking stopped for a second, and then it began again, but it felt totally different. Instead of being a result of fear, it was due to an insane urge to just hold the man and once more taste his sweet body. God, he must be a pervert, to want to have sex now when tomorrow morning his world could explode in his face, but as he thought about that, he also realized that if it did explode, at least Seth would be there to help piece him together again. There was something reassuring that whatever happened tomorrow, he wouldn’t be facing it alone.

He turned and smiled at Seth and then he reached over to his side of the bed. Chris was stretched out fully, his legs on one side and his head at the other end of the bed and he flipped over, to lie on his back and stare down at Seth. He reached over his head and fumbled a little but then found what he was looking for. Chris raised his hand up from the night table and held it out towards Seth.

Seth stared at Chris, feeling his groin aching and his penis growing harder by the second. God, the man was an absolute Adonis when he lay stretched out that way and he could see the bulge in his crotch growing bigger by the second. His eyes narrowed as he followed Chris’ movements, seeing him reach over his head and he waited, licking his lips, wondering if Chris would bring him what he needed. He didn’t have long to wait as Chris brought his arm back down and now offered it to Seth. He opened his fist, and there, in the palm of his hand was one unopened condom. Seth smiled as he stood up and began to slowly remove his clothes, his eyes never leaving Chris’ body.